As a young woman I tended to ignore my instincts that suggested someone’s behaviour was not indicative of a positive, fulfilling relationship. Probably due to many years of relentless bullying that mentored a deep lack of self-belief and self-love.
Yet as time passed, many positive experiences and relationships allowed me to nurture self love and as that grew, so did my ability to listen to, and honour my instincts. As such, there were very few times in which I didn’t act on instinctual signals.
Until recently.
For reasons not yet determined, old behaviours surfaced and I found myself becoming that frightened little girl who, many years ago, sheltered from the tormenters, ran from the bullies. Past fears dictated my behaviour and the strong, fearless woman I am now, hid in the shadows of self doubt. I forgot how to protect myself and so I became caught in a web of negativity and narcissistic behaviour.
Then I remembered.
Remembered I was not that frightened, bullied, little girl. I was a strong, independent, loving woman who did not cower to narcissistic behaviour.
So I acted, and closed a chapter that should never have been reopened.
stanley & bear 